So, today is the day I pick up my down reg drugs. It feels like I've waited an age but today is finally here - hurray! I literally can't wait to get my hands on them!
x
Wednesday, 10 April 2013
Saturday, 6 April 2013
The sun is shining and my upcoming IVF treatment feels ok!
Well what a difference the sunshine can make to how you feel!
Today has felt like the first day of Spring and Buzz, Posey and I made the most of it by going to the park where there are lots of farm animals. Posey loved the little lambs, ducks and pot belled pigs :). She enjoyed riding on the mini train and eating cookies in the cafe too. We had a really nice day.
A big part of me feels like I'd be so sad if Posey didn't have a little brother or sister to share days like this with, but at the same time it's also nice that Buzz and I get to shower her with ALL of our attention. I feel very fortunate x
Today has felt like the first day of Spring and Buzz, Posey and I made the most of it by going to the park where there are lots of farm animals. Posey loved the little lambs, ducks and pot belled pigs :). She enjoyed riding on the mini train and eating cookies in the cafe too. We had a really nice day.
A big part of me feels like I'd be so sad if Posey didn't have a little brother or sister to share days like this with, but at the same time it's also nice that Buzz and I get to shower her with ALL of our attention. I feel very fortunate x
Friday, 5 April 2013
Positive Mental Attitude!
A the start of this year one of my best friends bought me a book called "Start the Day with Katie" written by Katie Piper. I think she is an amazing, inspirational girl and I have a huge amount of respect for her. Each day there is a statement. An inspiring and thoughtful statement, which really makes me think. I would totally recommend her book. I've been reading ahead a little....
1. The day I pick up my first IVF drugs - "If you feel anger, acknowledge it, then learn to let it go. The more it lingers, the greater it grows." I feel anger every day, anger that I have severe PCOS and can't just conceive a baby like 'that'. I'm a good mum and can provide for a big family. Life is unfair sometimes, but Katie is right. Anger gets you nowhere!
2. The day I believe I will start my IVF stims injections - "Focus on the individual steps you need to take to achieve your goals, rather than worrying about the entire journey." WOW! I'm going to really remember this one :)
3. The day after the day I believe my Egg Collection will happen - "A positive attitude will open many doors." Very true...
I can't think any further than that as it all depends on fertilisation and if/how many embryos we have. We got 1 out of 12 last time (but it was a good one = Posey!!) so I know not to count my chickens...
P M A !
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1. The day I pick up my first IVF drugs - "If you feel anger, acknowledge it, then learn to let it go. The more it lingers, the greater it grows." I feel anger every day, anger that I have severe PCOS and can't just conceive a baby like 'that'. I'm a good mum and can provide for a big family. Life is unfair sometimes, but Katie is right. Anger gets you nowhere!
2. The day I believe I will start my IVF stims injections - "Focus on the individual steps you need to take to achieve your goals, rather than worrying about the entire journey." WOW! I'm going to really remember this one :)
3. The day after the day I believe my Egg Collection will happen - "A positive attitude will open many doors." Very true...
I can't think any further than that as it all depends on fertilisation and if/how many embryos we have. We got 1 out of 12 last time (but it was a good one = Posey!!) so I know not to count my chickens...
P M A !
x
Vivid dreams about being pregnant...
Perhaps I'm eating too much cheese! I'm having really vivid dreams about being pregnant!
I haven't even started my down reg drugs yet let alone my stims & my mind is already working overtime....
In my dream last night Posey was stroking my baby bump as I was lying on the sofa. She was pointing at it and saying 'Babbeeeee'. It was really sweet. Wow, I hope that dream turns into reality.
x
I haven't even started my down reg drugs yet let alone my stims & my mind is already working overtime....
In my dream last night Posey was stroking my baby bump as I was lying on the sofa. She was pointing at it and saying 'Babbeeeee'. It was really sweet. Wow, I hope that dream turns into reality.
x
Wednesday, 3 April 2013
Emotions that come with wanting a baby
While you're going though fertility treatment you can really educate yourself on the drugs you take, the fertility investigations you'll go through, the waiting, the procedures......
It's very easy to think you'll sail through it as long as you 'carry on as normal.' I absolutely felt that way last time, before we conceived Posey, but this time I kinda know what's coming my way emotionally too, and I'm finding it hard to get my head around it in all honesty.
There are so many highs and lows that come with fertility treatment and I guess you have to hope it all ends with a high! So far:
Setting the consultation date = high
Waiting for that date = low
Having our consultation = high
Realising it would be another 20 odd days until we start my down-reg drugs = low
Imagining having another baby = high
Imagining it not working = low
Way too many things to think about!!! Help me - advice please to keep my emotions under control?
x
It's very easy to think you'll sail through it as long as you 'carry on as normal.' I absolutely felt that way last time, before we conceived Posey, but this time I kinda know what's coming my way emotionally too, and I'm finding it hard to get my head around it in all honesty.
There are so many highs and lows that come with fertility treatment and I guess you have to hope it all ends with a high! So far:
Setting the consultation date = high
Waiting for that date = low
Having our consultation = high
Realising it would be another 20 odd days until we start my down-reg drugs = low
Imagining having another baby = high
Imagining it not working = low
Way too many things to think about!!! Help me - advice please to keep my emotions under control?
x
Tuesday, 2 April 2013
IVF is verrrrrry expensive!
So Buzz and I believe that our round of IVF with ICSI is going to cost us somewhere between £6000-£6500. Wow.
That includes all of the drugs, bloods, scans, procedures etc. what it doesn't include is the 45 minutes each way Buzz and I have to travel to the clinic for appointments (often!), and the time I take of work, as of course with being self-employed I only earn when I work....:(
So today I thought I'd look at more money-making ideas! Having already cancelled my gym membership and just about every non-essential direct debit so far I have the following:
1. Stop going to Costa, Starbucks & Pret
2. Sell everything that isn't nailed down on ebay.
4. Launch an ironing service.
5. Drive to the clinic at exactly 56 miles per hour to conserve fuel.....
And so my money-making plans go into action this afternoon!
x
That includes all of the drugs, bloods, scans, procedures etc. what it doesn't include is the 45 minutes each way Buzz and I have to travel to the clinic for appointments (often!), and the time I take of work, as of course with being self-employed I only earn when I work....:(
So today I thought I'd look at more money-making ideas! Having already cancelled my gym membership and just about every non-essential direct debit so far I have the following:
1. Stop going to Costa, Starbucks & Pret
2. Sell everything that isn't nailed down on ebay.
4. Launch an ironing service.
5. Drive to the clinic at exactly 56 miles per hour to conserve fuel.....
And so my money-making plans go into action this afternoon!
x
Monday, 1 April 2013
April = IVF month!
Hurray, April is here! April is officially known as IVF month to me :). Only 15 days until I start my down reg drugs and the whole thing finally kicks off. All being well I should be onto my stims injections by early may and then EC mid may. Now April is here is all feels very near and that makes me feel GOOD! x
I have been doing lots of reading about celebrities who have had fertility treatment. Courtney Cox, Gaby Logan, Penny Lancaster to name a few. It's amazing how many couples go through it tbh. Many more than I ever would have thought. Quite comforting to know Buzz and I are not alone x
I have been doing lots of reading about celebrities who have had fertility treatment. Courtney Cox, Gaby Logan, Penny Lancaster to name a few. It's amazing how many couples go through it tbh. Many more than I ever would have thought. Quite comforting to know Buzz and I are not alone x
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